What is it about that movie that fascinates me so much? The first time I saw it – on Sunday, really not long ago – something happened. I was touched in such a deep way no movie or book or anything like that ever did before. It’s just a story.
Since Sunday evening, since that night I couldn’t stop crying, even when the lights went on, even when people were leaving and the credits were running, since that night I have random spasms and outbreaks of creativity. Dialogues and pictures, entire scenes forming in my head – I can virtually see them, I can see Edward and Bella in flesh and blood standing right in front of me, talking. I feel what they feel, hear what they think, it’s all right there in front of me.
And I did it again... in just three days I’ve seen a movie twice.
But it’s so much more than that...
Is it the „don’t“ that makes this story so attractive to me? The danger, the „I know that it’s bad for me but I can’t help it“? The knowing but unconscious self-destruction...
Or is it the intensity of their love? That they would risk absolutely anything in the world to save each other and to be together regardless of how unlikely it seems that they succeed?
Is it just the „forever“?
Everything has to come to an end, that’s the way our lives work. Death is the final ending. But in Edwards case... Eternity truly is forever.
So is it just the magic of that word? Forever.
It seems so bizarre... And yet, it happened again. I was rushing home, eager to get on my laptop and write everything down that’s going on in my mind right now.
I have written short stories before and other stuff of that kind but never ever has someone seen it. Texts that come from so deep within are usually something I keep to myself. But I must share this. I must share what’s running out of me, like a wild stream of thoughts, pictures and words.
You may read it, you may not. You may think I’m crazy and to be honest sometimes I think that, too. But this movie has given me so much. And I can feel that it’s not over yet.
