It’s funny how people change over the years. And how much you’re attached to the reputation you have without even noticing it. I mean, think of it. As soon as you’ve known somebody for more than only some weeks you start to have a picture of that person, a certain way you think this person behaves and thinks. I never thought I had that much of a reputation, or, even better: I never thought me and my reputation were so little alike. The people I went to school with may remember me as black-clothed, sarcastic, pessimistic girl who spent most of the schooldays scribbling lyrics on her folders and recovering from roadtrips. And since I’m here and I have to fill out application forms I hear people talking about me as a very friendly, positive, open-minded, smilie person. Believe it or not, but that really surprised me. Especially the „positive“ thing. I mean, not even I would consider myself a very positive person but apparently that’s the vibe people get from me. Not that it’s bad! It’s just... new. It’s so funny how certain actions in the past influence the way people look at you. And it gets even more interesting when you „erase“ the past, go somewhere no-one knows or has heard of you. Suddenly you discover stuff about yourself you weren’t even aware of. Surly, the question is: Which truth is the real one? The past will always be a part of us, it shaped us, it made us become what we are now. But sometimes the past can influence the present in a negative, unfair way. It makes us look like people we were, but not are.
What would you go for?
2008-02-13 @ 17:16